definitely i'm not like expert, guru or maniac.. but here goes somethg bout my sex experience..
like most guys, i grew up very curious bout sex.. when i was having lunch with colleagues the other day, bryan was saying that he once heard men think bout sex every 7 seconds.. woo hoo.. so i felt relief to realise i'm not the only abnormal one.. wheneva u see me like this..
(yeah.. it could b me thinking of somethg kinky.. lol..)
back 2 the story how i learnt bout sex.. i remember i was always together with my cousin brother, same aage as mine, searching for porn magz and got excited with them.. later on i neva stop developing, started to dig my daddy & brother's secret hiding places for more porns, well, the porns back then were more of european, not much of japanese AV.. and the european aggressive style doesn't quite fancy me afterall.. it was in highschool time i got to "exchange" the commonly available pirated CD and learnt more thru watching while "satisfying" myself.. (-_-"")
but.. watching porns can only "improve" me to certain extend.. and i couldn't wait to "apply" the theories i learnt throughout.. i have 2 admit i was so naive back then, thinking of having a gf is juz 2 "enjoy" the intimate actions.. woo woo wohoo! i first "lost" my virginity in the age of 16.. don't ask who & don't guess, i'm not proud of loosing it at that age.. hope this is not offending anyone & i neva meant to say how great my sex experience or to naively show off how many girls i had sex with.. in fact if u ask me, i feel ashame of the mistakes i've done in the past.. everybody grew up making mistake.. the message i'm trying to send here is that freddie has done all these shits in the past, try ur best to avoid if u could..
at the age of 17, i slowly realise having sex is not only bout "settle" my own needs.. it's bout how u show ur love & passion 2 ur partner.. that was when i started to imitate the romance foreplay (though again learnt frm porns, i do inject in alot of my love feelings doing it.. (-_-""))..
it was when i broke up with my gf when i was ard 20, it was when i turned into a very bad boy.. a very playboy.. again, i have to say i was naive.. at that age i didn't think twice and acted foolishly yo hunt ard, just idiotly thinking having sex with many girls proove i'm very loveable.. i was so so wrong.. all the mistakes i've done is only leaving me sins that made me imperfect and left me vry hurting moments.. juz like once my beloved mom said to me:
mom: "freddie wut r u trying to proove to me when u bring back different gals every weekend.."
fred: "no.. no.. (wanted to debate myself, i cudn't afford hotel rooms ma.. (-_-"") but didn't dare to say out..), i broke up.. i vry sad.. i was so drunk last nite.. i didn't realise i brought her back.. (yes i know it's so lame.. but wut else cud i say..)"
mom: "broke up.. sigh.. so? stop giving lame excuse.. (yeah, mom knew me da most, and here it comes the most hurting line in my life.. seriously if u hear it frm ur mom..) yunno wut, i dun see u being so great fred.. i'm like seeing a GAO GONG (male dog) in u!!"
fred: "... T.T.. (speechless.. shud hav defended myself at least i didn't do 2-timer ma.. some lil' difference between me & dog though (-_-""), i don't shag a few at a time..)"
(fred thinking.. omg.. i'm a male dog..)
well.. having mom to tell me i'm male dog, apart frm hurting, it's oso da softer version of mom saying: "u idiot son, u've been fucking foolishly screwing too much, don't u fucking realise u're just like animals shagging ard like no future!" i hav 2 thank mom 4 her love & patience.. to remind me that again.. sex is not somethg u play ard like a toy boy.. satisfying ur naive pervert needs, it shud b wut u're doing to show ur really love one u really love & care bout her.. u share ur romance intimate moments.. that's y it shud b appropriately mention Make Love..
since then, i stop screwing ard blindly.. partly oso becoz i went to sydney not long after that hurting incident.. but i truely understd the words my mom shared wit me.. fucking hurt, but really wake me up frm the foolish ages.. when i was in sydney, i met up gals frm different places but i don't do "male dog" anymore.. i got into serious r/ship (yes, though da r/ships started with sex anyway.. but it was not like juz fuck fuck fuck.. "love was made" naturally, when i really had da feeling to share my love towards them..)
today, if u ask me whether anot i'm good at sex, i can't tell (coz quantity doesn't mean quality works "done" in da past..) but at least i can proudly tell u.. i'm good at "making love".. coz i know the true meaning of it.. lesson learnt frm beloved mom.. thank you mom, ur words alwiz stay in lil' evil freddie's sinful mind!
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